So, last night the first movie of the last book of Harry Potter. Ok, let me start off by saying I was looking forward to this movie for a long time. Like really excited. Well, I went to go see it. Loved the movie hated the night. First of all Wednesday Andy acts like him, Dane, Triskit, Robert were all going by themselves like I wasn't invited. Ok w/e he says he was just joking. He didn't even ask if I wanted to go with them, but you know that's ok they're cool people. Tried to figure out where the derby girls are going to watch it, Andy bought my ticket without my input on where I wanted to go , now trying to convince the derby girls to go to majestic, no go. Ok not too big a problem still watching it. Well I get home from derby around 9:30ish, call Andy we decide I get ready get my stuff to stay for the weekend. This means work clothes, undergarments, work shoes, cat, etc... Now its 10:20ish and I leave and I knew I had to get gas. Well, I thought I was gonna make it to the gas station well I thought wrong. So, on the side of the road in LWP and I call Andy to tell him and he asked if i could call someone. Ok w/e I call around and finch to the rescue. But before she does I get from upset to angry I call him tell him I got help blah blah blah. Well this is where he says well hurry up we're leaving here real soon. Getting angry. Now this is like 10:30ish. I am now mad because he didnt tell me when we were leaving and I would have been late anyways. He was gonna leave me. Finch gets there and gives me enough gas to make it at a gas station. After filling up its 10:40ish. So I drive to the apartment to drop off the cat and leave. Livid by this time from texts and his not giving a shit just being a dick. And I know I wasn't being too nice as well, but I didnt care too much. So almost to the apartment two streets away and I fucking see them pass me. Now even more mad. Called them and oh boy did I bitch. They couldn't wait a couple more fucking minutes. So I drop the cat off and head out to the movie. Crying, upset, livid. Didn't even want to go with them any more. And low and behold I fucking pass the place. They already have seats Andy is there to give me my ticket and he tried to sit next and I didn't want him too. I am still pissed at him and hurt. Idk. But the movie was good.

mood: crappy

Its been a while since I updated. Almost a year.
My life is not too much differtent right now. Still with my amazing boyfriend. Its been 1 year 2 months 9 days. We have a lot of rough times but many more good times. He is sooo good to me. He makes me happy. He takes really good care of me and supports me in anything I do. I lived with him for a good while in his apartment with his mom and brother. But we recently decided it was best. Me and him kept getting annoyed with other people and not being to do what we wanted when we wanted because other people were alwatys around. So right now we are trying to save money for our own place. I am shooting for renting a house not another apartment. But if we have to I want a nice apartment. I can't wait to start our lives together. Lol he says we already have and he is right. But what I mean is us having our own place we already have a pet together our beautiful little cat Goku. (but I will talk bout him later.) He knows I want to stay with him for a long time. I told him I would love to marry him one day and have kids. He said he would love to after school and we are ready. I am so lucky he is still with me. I will do another post about what we did on our year anneversary.

I am also still doing roller derby. Still a proud member of SFRG. October made it a year. But unfortunately I haven't been able to skate the full year thanks to me injuring mtself twice within about 4 months of each other. See whst had happrned the first time. I hurt myself wadbon my birthday. (July 8, 2010) we were at practice and the whoke practice I wad playing the hardest I remember at the time playing trying to do the things we had been working on. So the last jam of the night I was power blocking, and Hannah was on the other team jamming. She came up and my first reaction is hit the jammer, so I hit her with my force and she hit me with hers, and she's a hard fucking hitter, and that shit fucking hurt. All of a sudden right after the hit you hear me say fuck thrn go to the middle of the track. Man was that a lot of pain. My team rushes over takes my skate off on my left side elbow pads wrist guard. We on thought I jammed my shoulder pretty good but man was it swollen. let's say my birthday just didn't go like planned. I didn't go to the hospital that night becsusr I already had a doc. appointment scheduled for the next morning. When I went I asked them if tgey could take a look at it and they did. After x-rays tgey dicovered that I had fractyred my clavicle. So I wad out for a good 4 months or so. Sep. 2nd or 3rd I believe I come back to skate hitting and everthing. Played......

location: IRSC-Mueller campus mood: chipper

Its a new year and a time that I put the past behind me and stop dwelling on what once was. For the most part I have been extremely happy.  I have a amazing boyfriend (unfortunately we are having some downs), I've joined Roller Derby and I love it, I'm going to college to better myself in the career I chose.

My Amazing Boyfriend is John Anderson Varnadoe. Yes, Andy. I dated him back in my sophomore year and we broke up taking our separate ways. I don't exactly remember how we started to talk again but I remember the first time I hung out with him again since we broke up. The feelings I once had for him kinda started to rush back. This was back in march of 2009. After several months of talking and flirting we finally go out on September 7, 2009. Here it is January 19, 2010 and I couldn't be happier. I mean yes we've been experiencing a rough patch but I don't believe its not something we can get past. He's so awesome and keeps me going on the right path, and I think I'm in love with him. 

In late October I took the plunge finally into Roller Derby with Hillary, and boy am I not sorry. It is the most invigorating thing I have ever done. The workouts are strenuous but worth it in the end. and Bouting is def. amazing. Stamina and endurance is definitely something I have to improve upon though. The girls I derby with are amazing. They are willing to help out with things and to take the time to teach me what I need  know.  The team act like it truly is a team and I love not having any drama there. (I did for one day but that's over haha)

I'm also in my second Semester at IRSC in the Culinary arts program going for my Restaurant Management degree, and boy is this semester going to be difficult. The program is so in depth about what we may encounter when we take the plunge to open our own business or to just hold  management job in any business. It teaches us life skills that are important. But, I believe I can do well if I try my damnedest. xD 

Well, that's my life so far. Most likely my post after this will be something to do with those three things or something random which is why I felt the need to Elaborate on them here. Sorry if it was boring. xD  

location: My mom's living room mood: contemplative music: Mael Mordha- Winds of one thousand winters.